My Story of Postpartum Depression

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my story of postpartum depression

I read all the books, and articles online. I knew all the latest APA recommendations. I had outfits bought and the crib all set up. I was prepared. What I wasn’t prepared for was postpartum depression. Sure, I had read about it, but it couldn’t happen to me. Until it did.  Here’s my story:

My postpartum depression started out as feeling frustrated. As we all know, there are frustrating things about being a parent. So, I wrote it off as new mom frustration, and that it would soon go away. It didn’t.

Then, I started snapping at my husband more. I had read that while your hormones from pregnancy started to go back to normal after you gave birth, there might still be some mood swings. It would go away. It didn’t.

I also started feeling distant to my daughter, like I was just going through the motions. I felt so guilty, because I was supposed to be happy and excited that I just had a baby, but instead I was struggling just to be happy. That’s postpartum depression for you.

My 6 week postpartum check-up came around and I knew things were wrong, and was planning on telling my OBGYN. At this appointment they had me do the routine postpartum depression screening by having me answer questions. I scored high (not good, but also not surprising). My doctor discussed some of the different anti-depressants and then told me that to gradually wean myself off of the medicine when I started feeling back to normal. I wasn’t fixed overnight, but I did slowly start to feel back to my normal self.

Postpartum depression is another one of those topics that have a stigma surrounding talking about it. One of the reasons is because of a big misconception about postpartum depression being that all women with postpartum depression have thoughts of harming themselves or their child. NOT TRUE! I never once had this happen, but I was worried to talk to anyone about having postpartum depression because I assumed they would think that about me.

After experiencing this with my first child, I was concerned about getting it again with my second. I think I was actually able to prevent it by understanding that not everything needs to be perfect. Being a first time mom, we have a lot of expectations about the way parenting will be. Round two, I was more realistic about those expectations.

My Story of PostPartum Depression - www.momwithcookies.com #post-partum #ppd #post-partumdepression

My Story of PostPartum Depression - www.momwithcookies.com #post-partum #ppd #post-partumdepression

My Story of PostPartum Depression - www.momwithcookies.com #post-partum #ppd #post-partumdepression

 

 

 

 

 

 

If you are going through postpartum depression please feel free to email me (momwithcookies@gmail.com), and I would be happy listen and share my support. If you need a little mom motivation, check out this article: Wondering…Am I a good mom? Thank you for reading this! Although it is not a topic talked about often, I firmly believe there is strength in opening up. Feel free to comment below, and also please share.

32 Comments on “My Story of Postpartum Depression”

  1. I hear you. There is such a stigma about post partum depression because many people confuse it with post partum psychosis. Also, women are burdened by the expectation that they should be deliriously happy once they have given birth. It’s great that people like you are spreading the awareness and helping women going through this.

  2. I think it is so important to be aware to the possibility of this happening AND ensuring other moms, especially first-time moms, know that this is okay!

  3. It is a topic people avoid talking about its very real and it helps opening up to at least one person. My cousin went through it it was pretty bad but she opened up and got the help she needed. Thanks for sharing uour experience, I am sure this post will help someone

  4. Thank-you for sharing your story. It takes a lot of courage to admit that things didn’t quite go as planned. I remember when my twins were little, and I was spending most of my days in tears (not sure if it was post-partum depression or just an extension of my anxiety disorder) while it seemed like all around me were these content looking mothers reveling in there babies. Sometimes even now (my twins are 7), I see a mother with her baby all snuggled up in a baby carrier, and I feel a little pang for what I missed. I’m so glad you were able to get help 🙂

  5. I think you are right, there is strength in opening up about these types of struggles we have as mothers. It helps us to not feel so alone, and can also encourage someone else going through something similar. Being a mom is hard. I know I had similar feelings after the birth of my second daughter and it took a long time for me to realize there was something off. Thank you for your post!

    1. There is so much strength in opening up. I understand it takes a while before realizing something was off. It is easy to justify and play off what we are going through. I kept trying to think it had to have been something else, but after I finally accepted something was wrong was when I was finally starting to heal. Thanks for sharing Molly!

  6. I would love to read a part 2 to this with how things were the second time around. I’m so glad you were able to get back to your usual self. It’s so easy to get caught up in what everyone else needs that as moms we’re sometimes coming in at the end of the race trying to make sure everyone else crosses the finish line.

  7. My doctor noticed that I was not as happy as most moms to be when I was about four months pregnant, so she started me on medication right then. She wanted to get ahead of PPD, I had suffered for years before that with depression and most people don’t even know. I’m so glad you told this story it’s very important for moms to talk and not be ashamed.

    1. Yes, I hope women will stop feeling ashamed and alone about it. I am glad your doctor noticed at such an early stage while you were still pregnant. I think that is why it is important to have a good OBGYN that can pick up on stuff that we wouldn’t. Thank you for sharing Andria!

  8. an extremely imp topic to share, i just wrote a blog post about this too and happy to read similar ones as well <3 keep it up and thank you for sharing your story

  9. it’s sad that there is a stigma over something mothers have no control over. it’s not your fault and you shouldn’t have to feel afraid to talk about it. thank you for sharing your story.

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